Damn You, Consciousness


I button up my black coat to cover what’s underneath

Confusion, pain, the colors of burning uncertainty

What did it mean when you looked at me that way?

What did it mean when you had nothing to say?

I keep thinking it’s an exaggerated picture in my head

And I should just listen to my music and slowly get to bed

But the lyrics to every song I play make me think of you

When I know I don’t cross your mind, isn’t that the truth?

Damn you, consciousness, why can’t you let him go?

What makes you think he gives a care for anything you live for?

He’s taking up too much space, all this time is wasting

Erase him and let me sleep one night without wanting to cry

I’ve never had coffee before, but now I’d like to try

Because I have no energy when you’ve drained me inside

Just by the image of some sweet, distant possibility

That maybe you’re imagining yourself with your arms around me

It’s my fault for getting my hopes up for the nonexistent

Like the way I’d hoped you’d understand when you didn’t listen

Now look at me sitting on the curb biting my lips

Swallowing down every tear and memory of your kiss

Damn you, consciousness, why can’t you let him go?

What makes you think he gives a care for anything you live for?

He’s taking up too much space, all this time is wasting

Erase him and let me sleep one night without wanting to cry

They watch, they stare

At this point, I don’t care

See these streaks stream down my face

You’re there, now you’re near

I can see you crystal clear

But you’re just looking at an empty place

Damn you, consciousness

I hate how much you let me miss him

I’m begging you with every part of my soul

Please, just let him go

Please, let him go