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Sometimes I forget that you’ve got your own life too.

Here’s my apology.

Babe, this entry is for you.

Has it already been six years now? Damn, I didn’t notice

That we’d been swingin’ together so long, stupid me, I shouldn’t forget this

After all, you’ve been my supporting arm in the fall down

When the bubonic plague went around you healed me with true love’s kiss, what bliss man

And I should be grateful, not hateful, but for some reason I’m too caught up in my troubles

Askin’ for your total attention on me, but see

It’s not my intention to make you tearful, fearful of this breaking apart in the sea

We, like an ice cap

It’s my fault, I know, spilling lava on your time, losing my mind, oh

Don’t see you coming from behind when you try to hold me

I push you away, but you understand me

And now you’re gone away, I wish your arms were around me

Oh, please, I hope you’re not looking around because of my failure

I’m sorry for acting so impulsively

And oh, the time passes slowly by as I stare at your photo tattooed on the moon

Where I’m forced to glance if I dare go outside

For the first time, I openly cry not knowing when you’ll be back

I pray it’s soon

Damn you moon, you really how to make me sigh

As I think about what I’d tell you exactly if you were here

Whatever I’ve done, I take it back just like this step

Here’s your space again

I promise I won’t consume your life, we should be side by side

I should never take you for granted

(x1)

You told me stories, made me laugh, nothing fancy yet perfect completely

I love it when you’re with me, you’re amazing, you get my heartbeat sailing

You’re the only drug worth inhaling

But every day that you had to tend to some things

I automatically assumed you didn’t want to be around me

Like I’m not important to you, maybe you’ve forgotten, am  I rotten already?

This sensation in my chest feels heavy

And then I realize you’re not obligated, now I’m frustrated, I have no right to call you

Go wherever you anticipated and if you’re growing fond of someone else

I shouldn’t be selfish, I can be by myself for a best friend to the end, no pretend

What other message did I send?

We have no wedding ring, hell, we haven’t even been on a date yet

Neither of us have confessed any sort of love, and I wonder is it just me

Who’s feeling this emotion, who’s wrapped up in devotion for another who doesn’t feel it for me?

How greedy, I put these chains on you

Angry about a situation you didn’t do, in fact you’re only participation

Was being wonderful to my heart during precipitation

When those tears would stream out of my eyes as I listened to a thousand lies

You held my hand tight

For once I wish the night was empty of the stars, empty of every shade of light

Whatever I’ve done, I take it back just like this step

Here’s your space again

I promise I won’t consume your life, we should be side by side

I should never take you for granted

(x1)

You’d said you’d be gone for a few days

It’s been eight, I counted

Before I let my instinct take control

I’m writing it down to realize I should let you go

Wherever, whenever you please, it’s not up to me

Untie the leash, go free

Baby, you mean the world to me

Whether you know or not, I’m so sorry

This time I won’t be sad, I won’t get angry

I’ll remind myself every day I just want to see you happy

I just want to see you happy

Whatever I’ve done, I take it back just like this step

Here’s your space again

I promise I won’t consume your life, we should be side by side

I should never take you for granted

(x3)