My Pool of Tears

For some reason no matter how hard I try
Can't get these dogging thoughts out of my mind
And I just wish I could ask for a little peace for a short time

Whenever I find a bit of happiness here
I lose the moment because something arouses my fears
And I feel so weak, so helpless every day through the year

How do I let go of my insecurities?
I'm laying sprawled on the shore washed up by the sea
Oh, I begged and I begged for the waves to drown me
Then I realized by the smears that the water is my pool of tears

I wish I could escape to somewhere far beyond
Where I could find a light, let go of all this, and move on
But I'm trapped like a bird in a cage with her wings gone

If I could only grasp onto a lasting hope inside
Learn what it is to have a reason, a purpose, a pride
But it seems that these are just daydreams that have died

How do I let go of my insecurities?
I'm laying sprawled on the shore washed up by the sea
Oh, I begged and I begged for the waves to drown me
Then I realized by the smears that the water is my pool of tears

I'm transfixed in a pose
Gazing at my reflection
Look away, look away
But I stay, I stay
And the pain remains
Trying to release what's eating me
Just one night let me be
I can't breathe

How do I let go of my insecurities?
I'm lying sprawled on the shore washed up by the sea
Oh, I begged and I begged for the waves to drown me
Then I realized by the smears that the water is my pool of tears(x1)

My pool of tears