Made Me Die

Time has broken this spirit.
I was never meant to last.
Oh, people, how could you do this?
I'm still here, you've left so fast.

Twist the veins of my heart
and you will hear me scream.
One day you'll regret all you've done,
and that's the day you'll remember me.

I've been waiting
I've been dreaming
Nobody's heard me cry
I've been crying
I've been dying
All you did was sigh
I've been hurting
Oh, I'm aching
Still, you let me die
Oh, how could you let me die?

I slept early evening, you know,
just to please your ambitions.
Now I'm lying in this coffin all alone
while you go about your missions.

Oh, I kept quiet and tried to hide it,
the facts you were so nervous to reveal;
murder, treason. Give me a reason
I should let your deepest scars heal.

I've been waiting
I've been dreaming
Nobody's heard me cry
I've been crying
I've been dying
All you did was sigh
I've been hurting
Oh, I'm aching
Still, you let me die
Oh, how could you let me die?

Hush, you whispered evilly in my ears.
I rolled the words under my tongue,
I concealed every one of your fears.
Never did I utter the pain I was feeling
locked away in the attic above your ceiling.
Did you ever care to think while you laughed I was bleeding?
Have you wondered what I'm needing?
All those dreams, I hushed.
All those hopes, I hushed.
All those joys, I hushed.
All those giggles, I hushed.
Oh, then the pain rushed.
Then the pain rushed, ooh.
Then the pain rushed, rushed, rushed.
You pulled the trigger.

I've been waiting
(I've been waiting so long)
I've been dreaming
(Dreaming all along)
Nobody's heard me cry
(My tears, my blood red tears)
I've been crying
(Crying all night)
I've been dying
(Dying inside)
All you did was sigh
(All you did, all you did)
I've been hurting
(Hurting so deep)
Oh, I'm aching
(Aching and weeping)
Still, you let me die
(You let me, you made me)
Oh, how could you let me die?
(How could you let me, how could you let me die?)
Repeat x2

You pulled the trigger without looking once in my eyes…

Mother Nature

Tilting my face to the soft rays of the sun

Take me to Heaven, I’m overcome

The beauty’s too much, I’m breathless now

Sweet, sweet horizons, fruitful colors bestowed

I must be dreaming, I must be hallucinating

No place on Earth exists like this

I must be crazy, oh tell me lady

Miss Mother Nature, the supreme giver of bliss

When I open my eyes to the first rays of daylight

You welcome me with a warm I’ve never felt

When I close my eyes to feel the touch of the breeze

The caress is so soft, in your embrace I melt

And I know no woman in the world can ever compare

To the complexion of your gorgeous features, natural and rare

Mother Nature, you are the queen of the world, peace and beauty

I’m so blessed with wonderful things you’ve shown me

Gentle nights you give me as I lay on your palm

Flower petals to hold me in your arms, the sky is calm

A nurturing of true love, how can I get enough?

Life may be tough, but you shine the sun above

There’s no reason for fear, you’re forever near

Watching me under the moon, I’m asleep soon

The lullaby you sing, an ocean shore afar

Miss Mother Nature, giver of the fresh monsoon

When I open my eyes to the first rays of daylight

You welcome me with a warm I’ve never felt

When I close my eyes to feel the touch of the breeze

The caress is so soft, in your embrace I melt

And I know no woman in the world can ever compare

To the complexion of your gorgeous features, natural and rare

Mother Nature, you are the queen of the world, peace and beauty

I’m so blessed with wonderful things you’ve shown me

Leaves, petals, clouds, trees

Fluttering butterflies, buzzing bees

Tranquil waterfalls, the seasons, a summer breeze

Tropical islands to the baby blue seas

Ocean waves, sandy shores, doves flying high

A spectacle of reality so magical to the eye

I feel your joys, your tears, your every sigh

Wind, rain, snow, the glistening sparkles in the sky

Yet I ask humanity how it’s possible, why

Would we ever think to let something this beautiful die?

I’m tilting my face to the soft raindrops she cries

Her love and pain in the sunrise

Mishap

The wheels are turning over and over in my head

My heart is burning for something I don’t have

I’m reaching my hands into the distance beyond

He said he’ll be back soon, said he won’t be long

It’s been and hours and hours and no sound do I hear

Something’s happened, time is frozen, my pulse is rushing in fear

Is it the devil come to punish me, for the sins that I have honestly

Truthfully, visibly, undeniably committed, oh, I’ve committed

But what could I have possibly done to get Hell’s fire to overrun

The over-spill of heat, because of me, was it me, is it me, come tell me please

I’m running in circles, going out of my mind, insanity

Oh, tell me please, is he ok?

Mishap, oh

It’s all gone wrong, let it go

Don’t hold on, no

Let the harsh winds blow

And then you’ll fall like I am

And then you’ll fall like I am

So grasp the rope

It’s hope

So grasp the rope

It’s hope

Fooled by daylight to think everything is fine

Chills tracing up and down my spine, never know what to expect

She says don’t worry, it’s a phase, and I wish my memory was erased

Because then I wouldn’t recognize this wheeling, stumbling, hurling, swirling

I’m a pebble you toss in the pond, not ever aware just how long

I’ve been drowning in the water

I am joining the others, unsaved shadows down below

It’s a twist, it’s a pull, it’s a clench in a hollow chest

A wringing of the heart as I linger on tiptoes in suspense

I’m tired of the nightmares, the worries, the worst affairs happening to me

Just want to be able to laugh, to finally catch a free breath in the air

Careless, fearless, painless, undress and run in the warm breeze

Feel it embrace me for the first time

But now it’s whipping

Mishap, oh

It’s all gone wrong, let it go

Don’t hold on, no

Let the harsh winds blow

And then you’ll fall like I am

And then you’ll fall like I am

So grasp the rope

It’s hope

So grasp the rope

It’s hope

Oooh

Mishaps, mishappenings

Come hold me in your angel wings

Give me a taste of the sweet nectar of peace

All I ask is a chance, a beautiful release

Don’t let me fall now

Don’t let me fall now

If I fall now, will you help me off the ground?

Oooh

The wheels are turning, hmm

Spinning, people are tense

We’re locked in this pretense

Oh, we can get out

Life’s about falling down

And then getting back up

Don’t give up

Don’t give up

I won’t give up

Holding on the rope of hope

You think you’ve reached the end but don’t let go

Mishaps happen all the time

That’s life

Just want to be able to laugh, to finally catch a free breath in the air

Careless, fearless, painless, undress and run in the warm breeze

Feel it embrace me for the first time

Richbies

It’s been a long time since I told anyone this story

So if you’re out there now lingerin’ listen to me

I’m a GYA, whatever that means

Never made it to the NBA like I dreamt in my dreams

Momma and Daddy tried to sow the seams

Between me and my bro, but he wouldn’t just leave

I packed my bags, took my trashy rags out of the closet and relieved

The burden that I brought from fighting out grief

This pain, this game, this stupid expensive chain

What they call life, the rollin’ ball to fame

But I’m tellin’ you now the world just ain’t the same

You’ve got brothers fightin’ to the death to keep the ring on their names

And those damn huge fancy cars, call him Mr. Slick

Call for help he won’t come, flash a dollar he’ll be there quick

Say you’re an old friend layin’ in the hospital sick

He’ll tell ya “Sorry, man, I’m out shootin’ in my new flick”

And that’s just what I hate, he won’t realize it til late

When you’re dyin’ in that rotten bed tryin’ to understand your fate

That your son, your sister, those MTV rock stars

How easily they change from loved ones to aliens from Mars

Spendin’ more time at the bars, focused whole on the snazzy cars

Forgettin’ you’re back home waiting while they top the charts

But they ain’t got no smarts, just a bunch of tarts

You’re waitin’ by the window lookin’ for a Xmas card

Baby, parent, child, wife, whoever you are

I know what’s it like too, I went that far

Listen up

You movie stars on TV, you singers on my CD’s

How could you forget family?

Tell me, what’s taking the priority?

Have you forgotten what you mean to me?

Listen up

You richbies with those dollars bills

Is the fame and fortune worth it still?

If I popped your tire would you kill?

Yeah, I know this is about free will

But you’re just letting it all spill

Isn’t it a funny thing how people change after a time?

One moment you’re best friends strollin’ doin’ the same thing, same grind

But this fella now, he’s got other things on his mind

From the dough to the bed to the babes, Akon’s shades

You used to be his special Valentine

Now all you’re worth is a penny to his dime

He don’t care, you can go, he’s a thug, she’s a ho

She used to be Daddy’s little angel before she let go

Today she’s a rave, the boys be pushin’ up on her

She’d complain if she was sane, but she likes it and they like her

So influenced, totally ruined, what the hell did I do wrong?

Don’t blame yourself she did it to herself, Mom

Didn’t plan this along, but if you listen to her first song

You can tell she ain’t comin’ back, sorry baby she’s gone

In her seduction, waist reduction, liposuction, yeah she’s truckin’

Fake body parts, loves plastic art, in fact she wears it, natural destruction

And she’ll look in the mirror and smile, man, I look good

And then she takes a glance at Foxy Meghan and says there’s more that I could do

Go through all that pain, yes she would to please

To be the thing that married men would stare at on top of magazines

This desire for appeal becomes such a disease

She’ll say what she wants, but do you know what she means?

Degrading women the way she flashes her flesh publically

Got the guys she wanted barkin’ but where’s the real intimacy?

And so at the end of the day she’s feeling lonely

Well, it’s her fault, I remembered her, she forgot me

Listen up

You movie stars on TV, you singers on my CD’s

How could you forget family?

Tell me, what’s taking the priority?

Have you forgotten what you mean to me?

Listen up

You richbies with those dollars bills

Is the fame and fortune worth it still?

If I popped your tire would you kill?

Yeah, I know this is about free will

But you’re just letting it all spill

I remember when my wallet was more important than you

Even though you did everything you could do

To show me truth and make my dreams come true

Someone like you, baby, I swear I never knew

Dedicated your life to helping me pull through

Could you accept my apology, baby?

Could you accept it, pretty please?

I’m askin’ you down here on my knees?

I’ve never felt this lonely in my life

Even when I’m rockin’ my CD’s, when the DJ’s bouncin’ for me

When I’m on every channel on TV, the biggest guest of Oprah Winfrey

I’m still needing you near me

I really hope you can see

I’ll give everything away, please forgive every word I’d say

When I told you I didn’t need you, I’m moving on from you

That’s not true

Momma, Daddy, bro, my baby boo

Oh, how I love you

Give my money to the poor, knock my car off a cliff

Take the jewelry and give to the homeless

Or take it as my gift

I’m done with materialistic

It’s been drivin’ me ballistic

To not come home to you

This is what you richbies do

Listen up

You movie stars on TV, you singers on my CD’s

How could you forget family?

Tell me, what’s taking the priority?

Have you forgotten what you mean to me?

Listen up

You richbies with those dollars bills

Is the fame and fortune worth it still?

If I popped your tire would you kill?

Yeah, I know this is about free will

But you’re just letting it all spill

(x3)

No, no, no, no